Friday 10 November 2017
Saturday 4 November 2017
Fear
I fear losing you. Just the thought of it makes me feel so scared. I don't wanna hurt you. I always try to understand you. Believe me, I am trying.
I love you so much that I know it's easy for you to hurt me cos I'm vulnerable around you. You're my strength. You're my weakness. You give me the power to overcome anything in this world but yet you are also my kryptonite.
I know I am not good enough for you right now. I just hope you don't give up on me and give me some time to be the best for you.
When we argued and you walked away, I didn't know what to do. I was going crazy when I saw you walk away but I know if you didn't, the situation will only get worse. I cried not only because I was mad at myself, but I was afraid that you will not come back when you walk away. I was scared that you might give up on me, on us.
To be honest, up until now as I am typing this out, I can still feel my heart aches a little. I'm not sure what's happening to us. Maybe you need some space? Maybe you just need me to try harder? Maybe I'm just not good enough and this will not get better? I don't know. I just don't.
Biggest fear in my life right now, no doubt, it's losing you.
I love you so much that I know it's easy for you to hurt me cos I'm vulnerable around you. You're my strength. You're my weakness. You give me the power to overcome anything in this world but yet you are also my kryptonite.
I know I am not good enough for you right now. I just hope you don't give up on me and give me some time to be the best for you.
When we argued and you walked away, I didn't know what to do. I was going crazy when I saw you walk away but I know if you didn't, the situation will only get worse. I cried not only because I was mad at myself, but I was afraid that you will not come back when you walk away. I was scared that you might give up on me, on us.
To be honest, up until now as I am typing this out, I can still feel my heart aches a little. I'm not sure what's happening to us. Maybe you need some space? Maybe you just need me to try harder? Maybe I'm just not good enough and this will not get better? I don't know. I just don't.
Biggest fear in my life right now, no doubt, it's losing you.
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