There are days that I feel like I'm at the top of the world but there are days that I feel like burying myself deep in a hole. Right now, it's the latter.
It feels like as if:-
- I'm lying down on the ground with a crowd just keep running over me and I can't get up.
- I'm in the middle of the ocean and I'm screaming but there's no voice coming out.
- I'm running so fast but I don't know from what and I don't know where I'm going.
- I'm waving my hands trying to get someone to save me but no one can see me.
I feel drowned with negativity. Pulled down so hard by this bad gravity. Hoping that someday someone will come and rescue me. I'm surrounded by people but I feel so lonely. I feel so occupied yet I feel so empty.
It feels like I'm not good enough for anything. My mind can't concentrate, it's constantly wandering. Even though I'm alive and that I'm still breathing. I can't help but to feel like I'm always losing. I can feel my happiness slowly depleting. But I still don't know how to fix everything. I wish I know the fastest way for me to fulfill what I'm lacking. Cos I can see that things have started breaking.
